We have a new moon in Cancer coming to us early in the morning Pacific Time on Monday July 4. As a Cancerian myself with a resonant Pisces moon I feel particularly attuned to this happening. The reflections below are personal and individual: I hope that they stimulate you in your own process of discovery as the continually unfolding lunar energies infuse your life with their rich blessings.
Donna Cunningham’s Cancer affirmations from Moon Signs
I release worry and insecurity about the future.
I let go of hurts and injuries done me by others.
My emotions are fluid but in balance.
I learn the lessons of the past and joyfully release it.
I’m safe at home in the nurturing love of the divine.
I love that last one: I hear in it the joyous cry of a Cancerian who has now been home for three weeks after three amazing but NOT-HOME weeks in Japan.)
I’M SAFE AT HOME IN THE NURTURING LOVE OF THE DIVINE!
I’M SAFE AT HOME IN THE NURTURING LOVE OF THE DIVINE!
I’M SAFE AT HOME IN THE NURTURING LOVE OF THE DIVINE!!!
I know, I know, ultimately “home” is a state of mind, not a specific place on the planet. That is something for me to work on letting go o–I’M SAFE AT HOME IN THE NURTURING LOVE OF THE DIVINE!
Here are the affirmations I want to work with for the next four weeks:
I release worry and insecurity about the future.
This spring I completed my shamanic training (well, a phase of it anyway, because with shamanism you really never know what is coming next) and talked about it in the post Initiation. At that point I threw a gauntlet down with myself, so to speak, staking a claim to move forward with public work as a teacher of wisdom, as a musician who offers healing and blessing, and as a being who is willing to make his deepest self visible. Between then and now there have been a few distractions, travel and some family health matters, but I am now returning to those claims. It’s time to start acting on them more forcefully and with intention. Teaching Soul Cartography is part of that, Orchard Oculus (which will have its moment in the sun soon) is a part of that, and there is more to come beside. What I have to learn from these acts of sharing feels central to my purpose, and I am excited about that. Yet I do tend to chew on the uncertainties. The moon dancing with the sun this Monday gives me a chance to let go of that and embrace this precious moment I find myself in. I get to share! I got to show the precious being that I am! And the universe will rise to meet me, bringing me just what I need – as it always does, as it always does.
My emotions are fluid but in balance.
This is a lesson I learn over and over again, so it must be a good one. There is an unmistakable fluidity at my core. As a child on the playground, as a teenager with hormones, as a young teacher, as a performer – I have told myself in many situations that I needed to firm up, stabilize, stay clear of fluidity – it has often felt dangerous, vulnerable, out of control. I am learning – slowly learning – that fluid does not mean any of those things. Balanced fluidity is strength and no cause for shame. Staying in touch with fluidity is not going to cause me to lose control. I have all the might of the ocean behind me, under me, and I can move freely on top of this tremendous reservoir of strength.
I learn the lessons of the past and joyfully release it.
In many ways I am seeing past patterns recurring, bu with significant differences that are helping me to move beyond the pattern and into greater freedom, choice, and empowerment. There were many, many times while we were in Japan that I was reminded of an epic journey to the Middle East I took just after college. I spent a couple of months in Israel and a few weeks in Egypt. I wrote recently about “longing for belonging” – on that Middle East trip it hit me extremely hard at a very vulnerable time. In many ways it was the darkest time of my life and I was really suffering. While I have traveled in Europe a few times in the intervening years, this trip to Japan a few weeks ago was, in its exoticism and utter otherness, the most similar to those days in Israel. Confronted with an unfamiliar Japanese situation and searching through the limited phrasebook in my head, I often found Hebrew words coming to me instead. And the tight-knit, unavailable vibe I felt in Japan did remind me a lot (though in a very different way) of the inscrutable (to me, despite my desire and best efforst) Jewish community in Israel.
These flashbacks, surprisingly, brought me not a sense of heartache but of liberation. I was able to step back and see, quite clearly, how crucial the experiences of exclusion and separation and longing-for-belonging have been for me. On a soul level, this is the nourishment I have needed. It has shaped me and birthed in me a particular species of wisdom and compassion – not unrelated to that fluidity I spoke of earlier. And now that reservoir of what seemed like rejection and disappointment is turning out to be the very thing that is most nourishing and essential.
Coming back to the affirmation: what I’m working toward is not so much a release of the past as an embrace of it in a new way.
